Back with the parents and, as usual, a couple of days of it and I'm feeling really down. Ho hum.
Back with the parents and, as usual, a couple of days of it and I'm feeling really down. Ho hum.
The day after I posted about the wonders of Mirtazapine it became so much less effective.
I had my first dose of 30mg last night and it didn't really do much, I did fall asleep quicker than I would have without it (took me about 45 minutes) but I kept waking throughout the night.
Also, it seems that it's making me extremely irritable. I'm usually quite calm and control my anger but I've been chimping out at little things (or very close to it) for the past 10 days or so.
I'll go to my GP in a week and if things don't improve I'll probably have to try something else.
All my cunt friends have families that like each other which they're spending time with them today, so I've gone for a massive walk. Watching the United match in the pub and will probably arse around in here until 7ish. That or walk to another pub to grab some food.
Do y'all ever have periods where it's just hard to care about anything? I know I'm not depressed or anything, it will pass, but it's still annoying. I think it might have something to do with being away from my friends for a longer period, which is interesting because while I love my friends I don't see myself as being particularly reliant on them. I'm also seemingly finding it difficult to relax but that's probably because of applying to college and such.
That's kinda how mine was. I was bored beyond belief but had no impetus to do anything.
Feel down. Probably because I've been drunk for the last three nights. Really didn't need to have gone out last night.
Ever have the feeling that your just going through the motions? Same shit different day?
In a bid to "mix things up" I've turned to meditation (lol). If eastern philosophy is to be believed it's the tits. At a base level I can see the postives and twenty minutes away from the girlfriend is a blessing. I've told her in no circumstances is she to interrupt me. Brilliant.
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We had a thread about meditation on the old board after quite a few of us depressives (and some who aren't) said they did it and it helped them. You don't have to subscribe to eastern philosophy either.
You sound like you don't really like your girlfriend from everything you say on here. Maybe that's why things feel a bit shit for you?
Keep your girlfriend but meditate whenever you find yourself resenting her.
He'll probably just spend 20 minutes cracking one off thinking about the bird from work.
I've been at it a week or so now. 100% she thinks I'm tossing off.
Take up a sport if life's a bit dull, @Manc. Adults playing sport is underrated.
It's cool you're doing meditation, I heartily recommend it.
Any physical exertion outside of weightlifting would be hard to manage.
I'm all for going outside my comfort zone, but how?
Why?
Do music. Learn to code so that you can build cool shit. Hobbies are only really useful at alleviating this kind of feeling if they're legit involved hobbies, like not the kind of shit you do aimlessly. Sport is awesome as that, and gives you direction in the gym too. Maybe rock climbing?
I could always "compete". Grab the oil, Foe and lets hit the beds.
Go and do a bungee jump. That'll sort you out.
...and no-one must ever go beyond the boundaries they've reached thus far in life. All new experience is only a mirage leading to disappointment, resentment and self-loathing
Amen
1 The words of the Preacher, the son of David, king in Jerusalem.
2 Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity.
3 What profit hath a man of all his labor which he taketh under the sun?
4 One generation passeth away, and another generation cometh: but the earth abideth for ever.
5 The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteth to his place where he arose.
6 The wind goeth toward the south, and turneth about unto the north; it whirleth about continually, and the wind returneth again according to his circuits.
7 All the rivers run into the sea; yet the sea is not full: unto the place from whence the rivers come, thither they return again.
8 All things are full of labor; man cannot utter it: the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing.
9 The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.
10 Is there any thing whereof it may be said, See, this is new? it hath been already of old time, which was before us.
11 There is no remembrance of former things; neither shall there be any remembrance of things that are to come with those that shall come after.
Ecclesiastes is fucking brutal
I'm not saying he has to do those things, i'm just giving them as examples. i don't even rock climb. The point is a hobby needs to be intense for it to actually get you feeling you're doing something. I think creating things is the most rewarding type of hobby. It can be crocheting if you want, but it's got to have tangible results. Thats why things like watching movies, collecting things etc don't really count as hobbies in my mind.
The lad's having an existential crisis, and you're all telling him to download Clash of Clans and/or collect trainers. Give your lass the heave-ho, play it out six months, and if it's still bollocks do yourself in.
Clash of Clans is taking the Western world by fire. I'll hold out for a while longer but honestly if the biggest dogs start playing that grind, which they have, then you've extended your grasp into every conceivable market, so I can't claim to be immune
You are like the cool one from Saved By The Bell, with your lingo.
Lol young people
I meant game instead of grind, but the biggest dogs are always the biggest dogs...
I am getting bored at work, last 2 week there is not alot of work so been training to pass Microsoft Exams. Not very motivated at the moment, and thinking of changing jobs.
Being bored at work sucks
I feel absolutely horrible at the moment. It's a mixture of things but I haven't felt this bad for months.
Do tell, Hammer.
I've kept up the meditation for three weeks now and although not enlightened the very act seems to be balancing my mood. Along with sitting in silence, I'm reading a tonne, exercising 4+ times a week and perhaps more importantly "touching base" with friends and family with regularity. I'm far from content, but it's a noticeable improvement.
Its a mixture of a few things. Relationship not working out the Iass was feeling really good about being the main thing, but also other stuff too. Got my pen and paper out when I got home from work and feel a lot better now.
Im lucky in that in general, unless something really shit has happened, i never seem to be down for more than a couple of days. I view it like a cold. I just keep an eye on it, keep trying to figure out what's lead me there, always have a pen and paper handy to write any insight that feels relevant as and when it comes to me, and just give it a bit of time to fuck off. I'm a lot more accepting when I'm feeling a bit rough nowadays too which has done me the world of good. I can just get on with letting it run its course rather than fighting it.
It sounds like you're just a bit sad.
Oh, right.
Is there a criteria for the level of shitness (or numbness, whatevs) we need to be feeling before we can post on here? Are there any credentials I need to show? Because isn't that the kind of fuckhead remark that is so frowned upon when people are talking about this kind of stuff?
I thought it was harsh as well.
'If you experience some of these symptoms for most of the day, every day for more than two weeks, you should seek help from your GP.'
http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Depress.../Symptoms.aspx
Yes, and what do you think helps alleviate those things before it gets to that stage? Talking about it, which is what I was doing. Tit.
I wasn't entirely serious with my first post.
But at the same time, being a bit sad for a few days because a girl at work didn't want to marry you kind of undermines actual depression by labelling it as such.
Quote where I called it depression.
Edit: And you know what? I've learned from experience what helps nip it in the bud and what doesn't, and talking about it helps. So fuck off anyway, as you've missed the point of the thread.
I suppose it's implied by posting it in the "Depression" thread, but I still think Boyd's being a bit of a nobgobbler.
Boydy
My depression is more serious than your depression. My depression could batter your depression.
I didn't say anything about myself.
Anyway, sorry Hammer. I was being a knob.
30's didn't do shit.
I went to my GP today and he said the other GP that I spoke to is a fool who is young enough to be his daughter.
He said that she should never have taken me off citalapram as she should have told me to use both. He's bumped me up to 45mg of mirtazapine and told me to take them with 20mg of citalapram a day.